When my daughter S was a little girl, she was very sick with strep throat. When I asked her how she felt she said, "I feel sideways" - from the fever bending her sense of reality. I now understand the long-term effects of feeling "sideways."
Day 10. Glorious Day 10.
I feel like a phoenix rising from the ashes on Day 10. I discovered this during my first treatment, as well. I spend the first three days post-treatment in a steroid-fueled haze; I don't realize how bad I feel until it has passed. The next few days, without the steroids, are a slide down into heck (not quite hell...but darned close). Day 10 - Saturday - appears to be the day of cloud-lifting and fog-parting; the flu-like symptoms and feelings start to abate, and I don't feel like crying at the drop of a hat (or scarf...or cap...). My sense of smell and taste start their return to normal. I am no longer sideways.
If I can make it through the week after, Day 10 becomes my reward.
Nancy—I'm so glad I found your blog on the "Blogging is Smart and Cathartic" discussion board. You write about this topic with clear eyes and a warm sense of humor. I hope your feel good days will soon overcome your sideways days.
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